Sometime, Somewhere, Someday!

Someday, it will just hit you out of nowhere. It will hit you at the back of your mind.  It will  hit  you when you're out there sitting in your car and you think about who you were last week, last month and last year. One fine day, it will hit you that you're no more crying to your pillows at 2am, you're no where you used to be. Now, you're much more strong, a power packed human soul full of experiences. Some fine day, it will hit you, that you're finally living up the dream you once dreamed about because..

Sometimes,

You need to get hurt in order to grow,

We, as per the laws of nature have to loose in order to gain,

Because, sometimes the other side comes up brighter, best through the pain.

Only if others could see what her eyes saw,

Only if others knew that one reason she didn’t want to let it go,

If only others could feel what her heart did,

Only if such understandings were not rare and so no heart would bleed..

But, sometimes,

Leaving is not a choice, but a decision that you have to make,

and most of us do not have the courage to  accept it.

Somethings in life are not just the chapters  of our diary,

But the ink with which all of the content is written. And who will want to let go of that ink with ease?

None of us completely gets over anything,

Its just that, over the time,

We convince ourselves to forget that it ever happened.

All we can hope, all we can dream is to be sometime, somewhere living in the universe where YOU, I and US, all work out! :)

Because.. All's gonna be fine in the end!

Beauty lies in YOUR eyes!

There's much more attached to the word BEAUTY than just the beauty of facial features, a floral dress, or the white toned skin! All you need is to look beyond the definitions given by others, all you need is to make your own criterion  instead of blindly following those set by others!

A girl who can cry her heart out resting herself in her dad's arm, is anything else more beautiful than that?

What is more beautiful than getting to see someone coincidentally at the end of the day that you've been thinking about all day!

A night, out in the balcony with a cup of your favorite drink and those tiny starts and the cool breeze, anything more beautiful than that?

Those comforting hands of your friend when all you want is being left alone, aren't those beautiful?

A mother of two, begging on the signal, with her new born baby in her arms, isn't that kind of love beautiful?

Beauty lies in the eyes, that have just cried,

It lies in those words that  pour out of the heart that's drunk.

It's hidden in the smile that comes on somebody's face as soon as they hear somebody's name.

Two souls holding hands, whats more beautiful than that internal inexpressible feeling? 

Whats more beautiful than those twinkling eyes of mom and dad on seeing their children after a long-long time.

Anything more beautiful than those unconditional blessings poured upon you by your grandparents?

A night where you get to hear stories by your grandparents of their times-decades ago, what else can be more beautiful than that?

A new born baby, clutching your finger tightly as soon as you put it on his palm, isn't that beautiful?

Shout out to those beautiful  forehead kisses that rank no.1  on the romance scale, over and above any other thing!

A few words of appreciation that can lit up anybody's day, what is more beautiful than that smile that remains on somebody's lips because of you!

 Who said beauty lies in the eyes of beer holder,

It lies in all those eyes that knows no limit and no predefined definitions to the word 'Beauty'!

The 2am Diary Of A Dreamer..

I wonder how it is so easy for people to come, stay for a while and leave.

But then, I question myself asking why is it always me who want them to stay and weave!

I want to tell you how happy you once made me,

With those words and that smile that was only for me be!

If not me, I  want someone else to know how magical your smile is,

And, to feel the way I felt when I was all yours, bee!

Thou you really did hurt me, a lot, it was  all that made me strong and made me thrive.

I don’t know if what was between us was  "LOVE" vibe,

But if it wasn’t,

I hope never to fall in love.

Because of you, I know I'm too fragile and emotional to bear it all above!

I want to remind you of how you shared  things with me and with no other soul,

I want to tell you everything you shared,

Everything you entrusted will always be kept a secret in our secrets' bowl.

All between you and me,

And forever it will that same way be..

Finally, I m sorry for unintentionally pushing you farther,

When I only meant to pull you closer.

I want to remind you of days when I was 'HOME' to you,

On your lonely days and nights, full of feelings old and new!

68 Years Of Life..

8th July 2016, a day that left me and my family in deep grief. We lost our most socially active, always smiling and moreover the lifeline of our family. Today its been a month since he left for heavenly abode. Time flows by real fast and quick, but its still unbelievable that he isn't among us, unbelievable that He isn't sitting in his room in his apartment on the 19th floor, still unbelievable that his voice won't be heard upon the calls. 

Death- the ultimate truth that we call it, is truly unbelievable. How, in less than a fraction of a second somebody who was with us before a few minutes is gone, forever to a place where you can never bring them back from, never see them again, never hear them again, never touch them again. So much unrealistic it all sounds but yes this is the ultimate truth. Too painful to accept and too real to avoid.

 

No doubt we are more happy that he's finally over all the pain that he was going through and wherever he is, we pray he's at a better place but the place he held in our lives is irreplaceable. There was no one like him, and there would be no one like him.

He lived a legendary life. He was no ordinary man. An engineer by profession he was. About 40 years ago he was diagnosed with tumor in his body. Doctors after the surgery stated that he won't be able to live for more than 6 months at most, but he proved them wrong and lived for yet another 4 decades.  He managed to survive all major surgeries that even doctors were not very sure about. He was a man of a very strong will and that is what made him survive, actually, not only survive but live a very happy and ideal life. He was and is and will always be everyone's favorite.

For the past few years, he was completely in bed, couldn’t even turn from one side to another on his own. His physical body no doubt always needed support but totally opposite he was on his inside. I've never seen such a mentally strong and stable person.  Despite undergoing such hardships in life, all we could see on his face was a beautiful smile. No matter how much pain he went through, whensoever anybody would ask him, " how are you feeling?", he replied with his smile, " I'm first class and perfectly fine!". the person seeing him could feel what degree of pain he was going through each and everyday but you could never see it on his face. Despite all this, he was happy and content with his life. It was his daily routine to call all  the family members up and talk to them about how his day went and hear how their day was.

He was always worried about my health. Each time we talked, he would always have new diet plans for me about what to include so that I could put on some weight. Today, when I finally have adopted his diet plans  and gained a significant amount of weight, he isn't around. it was him i wanted to share it first with, but i guess I was too late to make a call. I wish I could tell him how fast I'm recovering and I'm sure no other human would be as happy as him on hearing this. Be it my results, my health, me pursuing Ca, he was the most interested person- on what I was doing with my life and the most happy one too on seeing me clear my exams! I know he wanted to see me become a Ca, and I know he's up there guiding me through all that is going to come.

I still remember when I was small, around 5 years old, he would take me around the city and buy me all the stuff I wanted without telling my parents about it so that they don’t yell at me. He would foremost buy me my favorite Pikwiks and choco rolls and tell me to secretly hide it in my bag! I know I was among his favorites and I never managed to tell him but he was, is  and will always be my favorite.

The life that he lived taught me how to be strong in hard times, taught me to smile when you want to cry the most. He taught me what is the power of your own will. He taught me how to be positive. He taught me how to care for others even when its you who needs the care the most.

Lucky we are to have known a personality like him. Blessed we are to have shared a significant portion of our lives with him. He's no less than a legend. He is our hero, a soul that gave us so much to remember, so much to cherish and so much to learn from. Your presence is always within us. He was a perfect father, a perfect son, a perfect husband, a perfect brother and an amazing human and now our guardian angel.

            WE MISS YOU. REST EASY BADEPAPA! 

The Words Unspoken!

Her eyes full of dreams, gazed into the deep dark sky,

There She found YOU as a gift of universe  to her,

The universe had himself gifted a new universe to SHE,

Out of nowhere-from ME and YOU to now "WE".

None of her cells  know how the time changed

in no time,

From a disheartened person-back to how she was,

to make life rhythm and rhyme!

No more worrying of the future she does,

Being happy and content in the present is- perfect and just!

She knows time changes,

And it definitely will some day to come,

But his presence in the present,

Is best out of all of her this year's presents!

His belief in a super practical life,

And her's in a world full of dreams,

This, completes and ties them together,

Like a cup of coffee with cocoa beans and cream!

No matter where they are a few years from now,

The life they're living right-now,

Is amazing enough to look back a few years from now,

And with eyes closed and flashbacks in mind,

Simply cherish the memories 

and to their own selves whisper "WOW"!

No Longer!

I will not wait for you to regret what you did,

Does the setting sun wait for the stars to arrive?

I do not even expect your sorry or any other explanations,

Does water from the tap stop flowing without anybody turning it off?

I no longer wait for you to regret  those endless calls  that you missed,

Does the moon wait for the night to regret its ending?

I no longer wait for you to wish me good or wish me the best,

Does the soldier going to the war awaits best wishes from anybody?

I will not count upon you for my survival anymore,

Does the rains wait for the farmers to cry out loud?

I no longer  trust your words or actions,

Will you trust a snake that’s  full of venom?

I no longer carry any hatred towards you,

Does a tree not bear any flowers again after a storm has passed?