Escape

I'm standing on the roof,

Admiring the color formations in the horizon,

I'm dreaming of an escape,

To the world I've unceasingly mused about.

An escape to find peace,

An escape where my heart is happy,

There's something different in the air at this moment,

It tells me I can do it, 

It tells me I can get through.

I know I've commitments to meet,

I know I cannot leave them behind,

Perhaps just a babyish hope of a better tomorrow is enough for today,

& writing this poem is my escape for the day!

I have an idea,

I know there's no foundation,

A world with a different format-

Where one could go,

To be free from human woe.

A world where there's no shade of fear,

& waking up every AM doesn’t feel so cloudy,

Good art is focused chaos they say,

If only what I paint could be real & stay!

The world is trying to convince me,

That this is the reality of life,

I refuse to give the nod.

My dreamy escape would be a reality one day,

Where I'll have peace of mind,

& happiness will know no words

but just feelings-

it will be one of it's kind!

How is the weather inside you today?

Its past midnight now,

With a window open wide,

The moonlight peeping in,

Just enough to make me see

The beauty of the night.

I'm tucked in bed,

Its cold outside,

I'm all covered

But the mind decides to wander.

Every time I blink my eyes,

memories are flashing wide.

How did the day go by,

How did the years fly.

All the falls I've been through,

& all the break through too.

I wonder how me & the people I know,

Are both, young & depressed.

In the years where we'd be feeling super alive,

In some corner,

are dreading our own existence.

And then coming out of it,

I shift my focus to the good.

Comparing myself with the old me,

looking at the woman I've grown into,

Happy-will the old me be?

I pause my thoughts,

& remind myself to be grateful

For all that I've.

Yes, dreams & goals are still on paper,

But time & hope are the shaper!

Half way through & half away,

But will definitely be-

where I wanna be, some day!

A little detour is never too bad,

as long as you find your way back!

I blink again,

This time- coming back to where I am

at the very moment.

Pushing all that's bothering me,

in the background

I look at the moon

and declare-

Today's going to be my day!

And I close my eyes,

think about family

& the love of my life

sleep finally knocks my door,

& right through it, to another world, I dive!