Monday, August 8, 2016

68 Years Of Life..

8th July 2016, a day that left me and my family in deep grief. We lost our most socially active, always smiling and moreover the lifeline of our family. Today its been a month since he left for heavenly abode. Time flows by real fast and quick, but its still unbelievable that he isn't among us, unbelievable that He isn't sitting in his room in his apartment on the 19th floor, still unbelievable that his voice won't be heard upon the calls. 

Death- the ultimate truth that we call it, is truly unbelievable. How, in less than a fraction of a second somebody who was with us before a few minutes is gone, forever to a place where you can never bring them back from, never see them again, never hear them again, never touch them again. So much unrealistic it all sounds but yes this is the ultimate truth. Too painful to accept and too real to avoid.
 
No doubt we are more happy that he's finally over all the pain that he was going through and wherever he is, we pray he's at a better place but the place he held in our lives is irreplaceable. There was no one like him, and there would be no one like him.

He lived a legendary life. He was no ordinary man. An engineer by profession he was. About 40 years ago he was diagnosed with tumor in his body. Doctors after the surgery stated that he won't be able to live for more than 6 months at most, but he proved them wrong and lived for yet another 4 decades.  He managed to survive all major surgeries that even doctors were not very sure about. He was a man of a very strong will and that is what made him survive, actually, not only survive but live a very happy and ideal life. He was and is and will always be everyone's favorite.

For the past few years, he was completely in bed, couldn’t even turn from one side to another on his own. His physical body no doubt always needed support but totally opposite he was on his inside. I've never seen such a mentally strong and stable person.  Despite undergoing such hardships in life, all we could see on his face was a beautiful smile. No matter how much pain he went through, whensoever anybody would ask him, " how are you feeling?", he replied with his smile, " I'm first class and perfectly fine!". the person seeing him could feel what degree of pain he was going through each and everyday but you could never see it on his face. Despite all this, he was happy and content with his life. It was his daily routine to call all  the family members up and talk to them about how his day went and hear how their day was.

He was always worried about my health. Each time we talked, he would always have new diet plans for me about what to include so that I could put on some weight. Today, when I finally have adopted his diet plans  and gained a significant amount of weight, he isn't around. it was him i wanted to share it first with, but i guess I was too late to make a call. I wish I could tell him how fast I'm recovering and I'm sure no other human would be as happy as him on hearing this. Be it my results, my health, me pursuing Ca, he was the most interested person- on what I was doing with my life and the most happy one too on seeing me clear my exams! I know he wanted to see me become a Ca, and I know he's up there guiding me through all that is going to come.

I still remember when I was small, around 5 years old, he would take me around the city and buy me all the stuff I wanted without telling my parents about it so that they don’t yell at me. He would foremost buy me my favorite Pikwiks and choco rolls and tell me to secretly hide it in my bag! I know I was among his favorites and I never managed to tell him but he was, is  and will always be my favorite.

The life that he lived taught me how to be strong in hard times, taught me to smile when you want to cry the most. He taught me what is the power of your own will. He taught me how to be positive. He taught me how to care for others even when its you who needs the care the most.


Lucky we are to have known a personality like him. Blessed we are to have shared a significant portion of our lives with him. He's no less than a legend. He is our hero, a soul that gave us so much to remember, so much to cherish and so much to learn from. Your presence is always within us. He was a perfect father, a perfect son, a perfect husband, a perfect brother and an amazing human and now our guardian angel.

            WE MISS YOU. REST EASY BADEPAPA! 


3 comments:

  1. You've been expressing your feelings honestly and beautifully. Nice...we are proud of you....It is always very painful to be separated from our near and dear ones for rest of our life.On several ocassions we badly need their physical presence but....I think we should embrace their qualities we miss to feel them with us....God bless you...love you...

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  2. You've been expressing your feelings honestly and beautifully. Nice...we are proud of you....It is always very painful to be separated from our near and dear ones for rest of our life.On several ocassions we badly need their physical presence but....I think we should embrace their qualities we miss to feel them with us....God bless you...love you...

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  3. Thank you so very much. This means a lot.I'm very much glad you went through it. Love you :)

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