My Five Best Friends

This post goes up for my five best friends that I have in my life. Four of them are still with me, have been with me through most of all but one is lost somewhere, may be where he cannot be brought back from. I don’t want to mention their names in here, because all five of them knows who they are.

From every relationship, we end up with a bit of sadness. It’s inevitable. There are friends who stay, friends who depart and friends who betray. And from the last two types, come a feeling that our hearts are inconsolable. I talk about friends, but I refer to lovers as well because for me, a lover is first of all a friend. If we cannot be friends at first, we cannot be really lovers.

• My school time best friend who has been with me for the last 18 years now. With each growing year, our bond is becoming more stronger than ever. We fought, we cried, we hated each other at times, but yes, she's always been there whenever I needed her, to hug me, to give me her shoulder to cry upon, to console me, She's somebody I can share all my  words with, from whats in my mind to whats in my heart. We have traveled two different corners of the world together where I was her family and she was mine. I remember how each time we talk, we begin by laughing and end up with tears and again those smiles full of hope emerge. Our topics change from coke and Pepsi to the meaning to life in no time. Some relationships take time to build. This was one such relationship. We have known each other since kindergarten but we just 'good friends' until high-school. And today we stand where no matter what phase I go through, no matter what phase she goes through, we will be standing by each others sides for sure I know. And it will stay like this all the time, because I do know something that is permanent: it's called the permanence of memory!

• The strongest memory about my friend is his departure. I did not realize fully what was happening until I held him for the last time and I saw him getting inside the car and I knew that after that car, there was a train, a plane and a long time or might be not seeing each other ever again. He was leaving and taking away with him my memories, that time of life we were together having fun, and hope and trust. The tears I shed that day are probably the beginning of my obsession about departures because from that day on, I wanted to keep everything and make it last. It was precisely that day when I started becoming a sort of a person I never used to be.There are relationships so deep in which dreams and expectations mingle that we cannot tell which belong to us and which one to the other person, it was one such relationship. I miss  the bond we shared  and its uniqueness because the good moments we had are unrepeatable in time and space.I  remember all those long  texts  and emails I sent to my friend back then and how happy I was later in life when I found someone to write to. When two introverts meet and they discover they can share their universe, it is an amazing feeling, which cancels all the loneliness .

•  The day I met her, hasn’t been too long, 3 years at most. She wasn’t even my friend. She was a friend's friend. Never did I know she would become such an eternal part of me. From HEY and HELLO it has today grown up to sharing a room in hostel and now when we both are in different cities miles apart, we never forget to catch up on each other each and everyday on calls and Skype. We rarely text each other, calls and Skype have become our only options. Or I guess we ourselves don’t want texting to be an option. There are days we have no topic to talk about but still we call up from far away just to let ourselves know that we miss each other, that yes, we exist, and will always be there for each other.  This was one such relationship that took no time to build up, it just happened, and let me tell you darling, you're the best thing happened to me in Jodhpur. I remember how we talk of every possible topic from  cloth selection to family problems to relationship advises to loving Kapil Sharma to trying new things together to all those random funniest possible thing we can think of!

• He came in at the most unexpected time, although we have been class mates for a while but never noticed each other. But I  guess, he's now the best and the only sensible person I know from where he belongs to. We were 'just' friends until one day, when reality called. And I collapsed, with all the drama passionate people are capable of and he saved me from falling deep down. I have no words to describe people like him, who still  exist. When I lost all of my hopes, all my strength, he believed in me. He never gets tired of listening to my crap, over and over again, for over thousand times now I guess. I know I was annoying him, but he never uttered a word out of frustration. Hes blessed with patience, sympathy and those positive vibes  that has helped me a lot. Even today, when ever I feel low, I think of sharing it with him but then sometimes restrict myself thinking he might be busy , I randomly out of no where get a text from him saying,'Shaily, are you OK?','Do you wanna say something?'. He's someone who understand me without uttering a single word. He has proved himself to be a true friend in need and so a friend in deed.

•  Another friend, when everybody thought of him as a studious  guy, not into friends and stuff, he proved to be such a great friend to me. He adored my writings,  appreciated my views, he knew that there was something inside me bothering me. I found him totally different than what people say about him. Hes super intelligent but on the same note is a very good friend too. Hes silent, not too talkative but an amazing listener,  a person who understands you with all his patience despite  of having a tight schedule from 6 in the morning to 12 at night. Blessed I am to have such people who really care and care enough to get you out of a certain situation and wants to see you happy. He pet named me something that’s totally opposite of who I am, but I guess that’s okay, after all I m not SHY at all!

This is exactly how I feel about the important people in my life. I have moved around several places in my life and have tried to always be in touch with a few close friends that I have.the memories we shared will forever stay with me. No matter how much you do it leaving someone you care deeply about, it is still the hardest thing to have to do. I am very grateful for the the people that have stayed in my life even if there are significant periods of downfall, up rise or time we haven't seen each other, when we meet up its like we never parted.