To The Boy Who Broke My Best Friend's Heart.

Hey, you probably don’t remember me. I'm your 'ex-girlfriend's' best friend.

I wish I could be sweet in here in this open letter and tell you that you were an amazing man, a perfect boy friend, but unfortunately you'll never hear it. I find you HIGHLY INSENSIBLE. You don’t know much about me, but I do know you. I hear all the things you did for her from those extra sugary messages to those romantic dates you took her to. I knew all about you far before meeting you in person. Yes, I also know those things that you've said and that made her cry.

I was not amazed when you told her that it's all over, because I could already sense it oceans away. Need a reason why I already think so? Because I know guys like you. You're just one of those smallest of the small fishes in a  deep ocean that inhabits uncountable like you. Neither were you the first one to this nor will you be the last.

You might be wondering why did I give so much effort to stay with her, when I had a simple option to walk away?

Listen,

It is because I'm not one of your breed, I have the courage to handle her at her worst and I know, she would do the same for me if necessary. She's my best friend, my sister, my therapist.. She's my kind of perfect human! There have been several like you ,but for her, there will always be single ME! I will never leave her side like you did. I was with her in kindergarten and will be with her when she'll be in her 70s and may not even remember my name. I've been with her when she planned to end her life to when she all of a sudden behaved like a 10 year old. 

Unfortunately you fall short to gain my respect. To me all you will ever be is a name and story, that’s all! One fine day when we'll be sitting together at night, with drinks in our hands, your name will come up, followed by a chuckle and those two eyes that probably will cry. I'm sorry but you're not even worth my hatred. You're not even worth seeking revenge. To gain respect in her best friend's eyes, you need to do a lot more than complementing her "hot & sexy". You need to respect her, her dreams, her feelings for you, and her charm inside and out.

One day, she'll stand up for herself. Until then, please try overcoming your FUN times, text ONE girl at a time, because one fine day even you will be sitting miles apart, alone somewhere and remember my best friend as, "the one that I let go".

I wish you heavenly support from the god almighty, may he bless you with some sort of understanding.

Your's truly,

The one who is right-now in your face!

Three Years Of Friendship & Many More To Come..

So, this is not a promotional blog or an advertisement but a toast to the 3 year friendship I share with this insane human since 2013.

Happy Reading Fato! This one's for you!

OK so let me start it this way, widely know as Nishu, but to me nothing more than a fatso, and no less than a best friend either.

Well you need to be really special to be in somebody's blog somebody told me, so now you know how special you  too are, right?  So here comes your birthday gift and the long awaited write up that took me weeks over weeks to come up with all these words. :P

A kind of guy who would drive you crazy to no limits, irritate you to an extend where you would want to punch in his face, but at the same time knows how to fit things right, knows how to make your mood up, knows exactly how to bring back your smile.No doubt he studied in a boys school, but his girls' friend-list never ends, every-time I meet him I get to hear about some other new girl that didn’t even exist the day before, yes, this random this guy is! :P

A kind of guy who is available to take your emotional shit in as late as 2am, and would sing you a song just to make you smile, even when he knows how bad of a singer he is. I actually laughed after it thou (not just smiled) :P One of your best qualities is getting everyone involved whether it's group meets, or any sort of gathering. I don't really remember the first day I met you, because it was never as if it was the first meeting, the comfort level has always been super high, you never let that awkwardness creep in.  

Well, I can't deny admitting how good of a cook resides in him, specially when it comes to pasta, that even drove my PG owner admit it, lol. Can't wait for the next dishes that you're gonna make me taste! 

 I know, you know,  we were no great friends back in the last year, but this year with you has been insane!  From those trips to these evenings, woah! So much to recall dude!

We've fought like siblings, cared like best friends, annoyed each other to an extend where you could easily punch me in my face and me in yours.  Yes, I'm not gonna share your pictures up here, what if somebody black magics you? LOL. Can't afford to loose you, you know! :P

The Fault In Our Stars!

Sometimes, we cant stop over-selves from missing things and people in life.  Times when there is no special reason for that major missing, its just there, all over our mind and the body! Happens with everybody I guess. Some of us end up letting all of it out of our hearts in the shadow of  tears, others take a few shoulders to share their sorrows with. All of us go through this phase in life. After going through both of the above, I finally found a way out of keeping things to myself, not crying over and over and still feeling better.  When ever you feel like drowning in your own thoughts, indulging in so much that  for once all over again, things seem impossible to get out of. WRITE. Pen down everything and anything that comes on your mind. Everybody has their own ways dealing with such situations, and this is how I've come to  deal with it, by WRITING. When it feels like nothing is making sense, no schedules are working, take a walk! Think of how beautifully the nature has maintained itself, and that it is okay to be alone once in a while, not surrounded by the crowd, that probably doesn’t even know what is going inside of you, being among them just because you're afraid of being alone.

Memories are what we make, create and have with us to put it all in our treasure box of life, whether they are good, sad, sour, bad, happy! It is totally okay to loose ourselves in the memories we have once in a while, it is a good thing, I have realized over time.

We smile, we feel sad, we shed tears. But all this is OKAY. It makes us strong. If not much it at-least tell us, our emotions are at work, they re being polished and are not suppressed.

Cry, laugh, smile, but don’t fall off the cliff. Do what ever it takes to float your own boat, but just make sure it doesn’t sink anybody else's!

EVERYTHING HAS A PURPOSE, EVERY MEMORY HAS A PLACE TO FIT IT. EVERY PERSON HAS A QUALITY WORTH LEARNING FROM AND EVERY FALL HAS A RISE TO BACK IT UP!

A letter to God!

Dear God,

First, let me begin by thanking you. Thanking you for those numerous, unlimited times that you made me smile and laugh, times that you made me fall and stand up, thank you for all those time i questioned your existence and you proved your existence even when you need not do it and thank you for all the lessons you made me learn on my way up till here.

We all know nothing in this world happens without your will. I know things never go as I plan, never. It always happens the other way round and with time I've come to deal with it by repeating to myself that 'everything happens for a reason and everything happens for good', but yes I still do make plans, just in case they work out one fine day!

I know there is no  gain in crying or upsetting over things that didn’t work out and I guess that is why not only me but majority of people have made themselves believe that EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR GOOD! Because this one line often gives you a positive vibe in the darkest  hours!

When things go wrong, or rather I would say not as per my wants, I blame you, I get angry that you never listen to my prayers, you never answer my calls, but isn't it how humans behavior is supposed to be? Questioning, demanding, getting angry and all those random junk of emotions that comes out when the heart cries!

 They say, you're present everywhere, in each one of us, around each of us. But still, going to your temple/gurudwara/church/mosque, standing in front of you, makes me feel closer to positivity, purity, and happiness. I often stand in front of you with folded hands but nothing in mind to ask you for, because I know that you know what all do I need to be happy, what all do I need to grow.

With these past few months I have realized how aptly you have answered all the questions I've asked you, in such beautiful ways. I get lost, I ask and I receive. May be this was the case from the very beginning but I never paid heed to the signals you sent and now that I've become a little more conscious, I know like I know like I know you answer all my questions and prayers.  Each day you give me a new thing to thank you for. 

A part of your creation,

Shaily!