Hand in hand, we are all here to grow..

I have picked up my pen again today-

since the mind is beyond full already,

Well- lets start this straight and honest-

I am really anxious these days,

Are you too?

Questions and worries have fogged the mind,

In such situation, what do you do?

The thoughts aren't really aligned right now, but I am making a way,

And I know, its all going to be just okay, one fine day.

Do you too, wake up feeling tired and sad?

You don't want to get out, neither want to stay in bed.

Where some days are so smooth, some are so hard to even begin,

Even the smallest of inconveniences, before you know- takes your mind for a spin.

Thinking to myself-

Why are the negative thoughts so easy to occupy and the positive ones so difficult to entertain,

When you know,your entire physical and mental health, they drain.

I want you to know-

This isn't forever and that everything eventually works out,

It's just that some days you cry, some days you write, some you smile and sometimes you just wanna shout out loud.

Your journey might be different than mine,

But no one can stop you from having the life you want and shine.

Don't let your mind tell you otherwise,

You have to write your own happy story and beyond it, rise.

I know it is hard, harder than we think,

But trust me, there is a break through, you're right at the brink.

One day at a time, one hobby at a time,

Try it, it works and wouldn't cost you a dime.

You are desperate for help, but the mind wouldn't let you take a step towards healing,

But think to yourself how bad you want to feel all those good feelings?

So pick that pen & hold that brush,

All that's holding you down, will be shushed.

The process is slow,

But hand in hand, we are all here to grow.

 

 

'Blues' doesn't always have to be sad.

We usually look at the city we live in with the same lenses but different perspectives. A city inhabits in itself millions of dreams, innumerable aspirations of those living there and those who move there in chase of a better tomorrow. We often come across a place, which redefines our understanding of  'home'.

You meet people, erstwhile strangers, become family. A family not bound by blood but a thousand disparate emotions. When we move to a new place, there is always an uneasiness of what tomorrow would look like, but based on who we meet, our sentiments and insecurities make a shift. 

Sometimes when nostalgia hits you, the lines between 'now and 'then' begins to blur. I have realised that the most authentic way of expressing love, is letters. So here's one for the city I love- Jodhpur.

I came here in search of means to realising a dream. No admiration for you did I carry within me back then. You introduced me to the legendary 'hostel' life. Sharing a room with 4 other girls, believe me as unworkable as it sounds- it is among the best memories of my life. Them, coming in from contrasting cultures, careers and cities, taught me how possible it is to have a family away from home. From having each others shoulder to whine on to driving up to the Stepwell when any one was down and low, sitting there till the dead of the night and digging deep into our philosophical selves. That place has an aura altogether different. You're down in the dumps- just go spend sometime and boom! To me, it has always been a place, where from I go back with nothing but positivity and gratitude. 

There's no street in that city that wasn't explored. No tapri left untested and untasted. Chai pe charcha was never-ending. And there's a different memory that the heart is holding onto with each one of them. Even though I went to all the places with same set of people, we'd always find different things to talk about, to learn from, to trip over and laugh out loud at. 

Visiting new cafes every week just to come back and rant that no matter how fancy it was, The Book Cafe is the best! From the busy bustling Sardarpura to the lush green and calm roads of Shikargarh, from witnessing the sun-rise at 5:45am from Mehrangarh to admiring the reflection of moon in the Kaylana lake, every direction has at-least one such place, where tons of memories were lived. Wednesdays were locked in for Ganesh Tekri, (the view of the city after sunset from that place cannot be missed) and Saturdays were for Pal Balaji and there from DPS dhaba and Mokaaz. Sitting on the rooftop of Dagleys and dining with a mesmerising view couldn't get any better as well. 

Having lived in a few other cities, none, absolutely none of them gives me so much to reminisce about, think of and love about as much as you do. No, not that you were always full of good days, but like I said you were full of life lessons, bitter & sweet- Lessons I'd carry with myself for the rest of my life.

Right when I thought it was time to move on from you, you gave me 'him'. I was then being introduced to a total another side of you. Little did I know I ll fall in love with you all the more. The best things in life comes when you expect them the least. You know how I made scenarios in my mind and let them out to the universe every night before bed, you pushed them to my reality. How can I not love you? 

The 'Jal Vatika' is probably my absolute favourite spot in the city. Standing by the still-water right next to the person I love, gave me hope, paved a way, provided me with a vision and in no time you became our go to place, almost every evening possible. Each stone carved in there, is an inspiration, a piece of history that reminds us where we come from and what we are. And on the other side, stands the magnificent Ummaid Bhawan that is a sight powerful enough to remind us our glorious past.

You have witnessed it all, from my career milestones to depressing days, from butterfly moments to heartbreaks and almost all my firsts. All the major life lessons I learnt were in your precincts. I fell down, you embraced me, I got high, you kept me safe. I stumbled, you gave me another chance. The best part about loving a city is that it never judges you no matter what, it accommodates you, keeps you warm. Thank you Jodhpur for being so kind, for being a teacher, for making me meet the most amazing people I could possibly ask for, for shaping a 17 year old teenager and preparing her for life with constant reality-checks yet keeping the dreams intact & alive.

Until next time.

Yours truly.

Mountains or The Beaches

I drop the curtain, 

And I am high on nature.

And all I conceive is an excursion to the mountains,

If only that excursion favours me living there for life, I would easily sway.

I sight-far yet clear, the summits covered in snow,

The pristine ray of the sun, turning them into magical glitter & gold.

Could this be more magical yet so real?

                                                            

I see verdure & the valley covered with colours,

So much melange, so many variants- the fragrance, ecstasy!

I have a feeling -'I am on the top of the word, looking down on creation-

& the only explanation I can find',

A gratitude filled heart, bowing down to the higher self, for being so kind.

I see 'life', I vouch for peace.

Lying down in open sky makes the 'vision' clear, milky-way now seems a little near.

And then, some 100 meters away there's a chai-wala making tempting Maggi.

Sunsets appear a little too real and infinitely beyond pretty.

The sky is clear than ever. 

In the woods, not too far, I locate a deer.

There's a stream flowing by, with water crystal clear.

How does on earth, this not make you thrilled & happy?

How does your heart not skip a beat & want to live here till the end of time?

Winters are dreamy, summers are perfect-

Wouldn't mind ditching the virtual world & to this get connected.

I’d rather sit on a mountain top- 

and relish the breathtaking views with my people or alone,

Where everything you do is a form of meditation & all the blues begone.

So, let me now ask you- Mountains or the beach?

I'LL.BE.THERE.FOR.YOU.

Dear Monica, when you said,"Welcome to the real world, it sucks. You're gonna love it,"

As much as you were trying to comfort Rachel,

Also you wanted to give her a reality check and keep it neat! 

I could feel you,

Twenty years ago you said something that each one of us agree today,

But most of us keep ourselves sane watching you at-least one episode a day!

Every time you  screamed,' I KNOW!'

We knew you have all the answers needed,

Your OCD kept everyone in check,

Be it Chandler, Phoebe, Rachel or your dad Jack!

How with equal energy you were always ready to be the host,

So here we are, raising you and your cooking skills- a toast!

Dear Joey, ''How you doin'?"

This phrase got every guy out there try it at-least once,

But trust me , no one can ever do it better than you,

Even though it's been 20 years, we're still in love with you,

So not ready anytime soon to bid adieu.

Every-time you screamed at the top of your voice,'' Joey doesn’t share food!"

Your priorities  were evident and super clear,

From being a star in Days of Our Lives to  a falling graph of your career,

You lived in today, did what you love and of the future, had no fear!

Dear Phoebe, remember how you had your own way of running in the park?

No one approved of your ways but you stood by your own self, never afraid of the dark!

When you said,'' I don’t even have a pla.."

Half of the mankind felt you right there,

But even such a big question could not upset you dare!

When Joey said that SANTA doesn’t exist,

it came as a shocker to 27 year old you.

From singing  on a subway station-

''Your love is like a pigeon, crapping on my heart,

To marrying the love of your life Mike on a street with snow-carts!

You made Christmas songs on your friends a few,

But forever will my favorite be-

Smelly Cat, Smellyy Cat, What are they feeding you!

Dear Ross, keeping aside your dinosaur obsession,

you were the most normal one among all six,

It was kind of heartbreaking to see all your 3 marriages fail  without fix!

Your dedication towards each of your relationship,

Your dedication towards your profession & both your-babies,

You were totally worth the keeps!

Even after several margaritas down you were "just fine"

You were whiny but no! not more than Janice did you ever whine!

 "Why do bad things happen to good people?" you said, we did feel for you,

But when you finally got Rachel,

that was every F.R.I.E.N.D.S fan's  dream come true!

Dear Rachel,you were like every other girl in her twenties,

Because not everything is as clear as roses and waterlilies!

When you first realized that you didn’t wanna be a 'shoe' but a 'hat',

Stepping out in the world for the first time is  scary -

but how brave are you to take that step, just like that!

When you acclaimed, "no uterus, no opinion"

You spoke for entire womankind,

You started from scratch & reached the top in line!

You know what made us the happiest?

It was when we heard, "I got off the plane."

Because Ross and Rachel, Rachel and Ross,

Is a  dream, picture perfect and insane!

Dear Chandler, could you BE more pun-ny & amazing?

You once said, "So it seems like this internet thing is here to stay?"

Well guess what, the entire world is taken over by it, night & day!

"Hi, I am Chandler, I make jokes when I'am uncomfortable",

After getting together with Monica your best version got enabled.

For all those times when Joey and you were not able to decide on things

You resorted to Rock Paper, Scissors,

Whether its asking someone to leave,

a game of Foosball or going out in the snow blizzard.

You never failed to put humor in every situation,

Be it office, Monica's apartment, Central Perk or a duck-chick conversation.

You said that you say more dumb things before 9am than most people say all day,

And each one of them made us laugh our asses off for sure everyday!

I'LL.BE.THERE.FOR.YOU , they sang everyday,

Whether for friendship or love, they did- with each other -stay!

We are, because they are.

To the one in Olive Green-

How brave are you to sign up for this?
Your warrior heart is worthy of all the salute.
The risks you take every other day,
Little do people know of your life,
but your precious ones unceasingly pray.

I sit here shuffling the news like all others,
A little anxious to even accept what's happening,
While you're at the frontiers
Donning that uniform with other brothers.

I try to be brave and not think otherwise,
I'm no warrior like you inside,
But eternally by your side with love and pride!
I can't wrap my arms around you everyday,
But all the wait is worth, like they say!
I sit here by the phone,
Waiting until you're safely home!

While I'm all cranky & fussing-
Over problems too small as compared to yours,
You choose to listen & give me all your attention,
Swimmingly skipping your own without any conditions.

You just won't understand-
Unless you're a soldier or you've been with one,
The odd living conditions while on duty,
and the deeds they've done!
They witness the parts of the countryside &
The way they witness sunset and sunrise,
None of us civilians would ever get to.
When asked,
How are you? Are you sleeping fine? Is the weather too hot?
''All is good, I'm fine.'' are their happy lies & gives us no clue!

If not more, there's one thing I really want to do,
While you take care of those who serve the land,
I will take care of you! 🇮🇳 

Acceptance

I am not perfect and I don’t claim to be.

I have insecurities,

& there are days-

When I don’t think I'm good enough.

Good enough, in the era of Instagram models out numbering the actual models,

In an era where our social media feeds and YouTube

Are filled with 3 step makeover tutorials with-

3 layers of foundation,

Fake eye lashes,

Two shades of contour & concealer.

In the era where "maal"is more commonly addressed to females than drugs.

Where, acceptance on social media by the opposite gender-

brings more happiness & excitement.

But, when will we understand-

all of this comes from 'boys' half grown

Because it takes a 'man'- to understand what's real & what stays.

Not your fault dear boys,

The world's designed that way,

Make up and filters, gym and diets here rule.

But like I said- It takes a man to understand & accept.

An era-

Where majority is racing to cover up their scars,

Take a minute-  stop and think-

Aren't your scars a sign of the battles you've fought & won?

Aren't your scars a sign of how strong you are?

Dear girls,

IT IS OKAY to own your scars,

Layering  them in makeup ain't gonna find you love.

And so,

Please wait. Wait for such love that-

crowns you with the kind of love you never feel the weight of.

Wait, for someone who talks to your heart &

Understands that faces can wear masks.

Work on self, for your self.

Do not 'mend' your self to please the wants of another.

Because when love arrives, it embraces you for who you are,

And stays, forever.

This Holi let us pray that-

Acceptance of the world isn't so important,

No one is afraid to be real & authentic,

Loyalty & Transparency aren't this hard to find.

Our intentions are more pure,

Communication is more honest and polite,

Lies lie at rest,

Respect is not just a word,

Let us try to take care of the little things within us &

The world will take care of itself.

Escape

I'm standing on the roof,

Admiring the color formations in the horizon,

I'm dreaming of an escape,

To the world I've unceasingly mused about.

An escape to find peace,

An escape where my heart is happy,

There's something different in the air at this moment,

It tells me I can do it, 

It tells me I can get through.

I know I've commitments to meet,

I know I cannot leave them behind,

Perhaps just a babyish hope of a better tomorrow is enough for today,

& writing this poem is my escape for the day!

I have an idea,

I know there's no foundation,

A world with a different format-

Where one could go,

To be free from human woe.

A world where there's no shade of fear,

& waking up every AM doesn’t feel so cloudy,

Good art is focused chaos they say,

If only what I paint could be real & stay!

The world is trying to convince me,

That this is the reality of life,

I refuse to give the nod.

My dreamy escape would be a reality one day,

Where I'll have peace of mind,

& happiness will know no words

but just feelings-

it will be one of it's kind!

How is the weather inside you today?

Its past midnight now,

With a window open wide,

The moonlight peeping in,

Just enough to make me see

The beauty of the night.

I'm tucked in bed,

Its cold outside,

I'm all covered

But the mind decides to wander.

Every time I blink my eyes,

memories are flashing wide.

How did the day go by,

How did the years fly.

All the falls I've been through,

& all the break through too.

I wonder how me & the people I know,

Are both, young & depressed.

In the years where we'd be feeling super alive,

In some corner,

are dreading our own existence.

And then coming out of it,

I shift my focus to the good.

Comparing myself with the old me,

looking at the woman I've grown into,

Happy-will the old me be?

I pause my thoughts,

& remind myself to be grateful

For all that I've.

Yes, dreams & goals are still on paper,

But time & hope are the shaper!

Half way through & half away,

But will definitely be-

where I wanna be, some day!

A little detour is never too bad,

as long as you find your way back!

I blink again,

This time- coming back to where I am

at the very moment.

Pushing all that's bothering me,

in the background

I look at the moon

and declare-

Today's going to be my day!

And I close my eyes,

think about family

& the love of my life

sleep finally knocks my door,

& right through it, to another world, I dive!

The Child in me is Alive!

I treasure a home in  your familiar warm hug,

Like a kid who races to a familiar face in a crowded quarter.

Your aroma makes me feel secured.

Like a little baby can smell his mommy & sleeps in peace.

I trust my hand into yours,

Like a baby when learning to walk.

I look up-to you when I fall,

Like a baby waiting for a familiar figure to pick him up.

I find comfort in your soft voice.

Like a kid forgets all his anger, discomfort, pain when talked to, with love.

I tell you my darkest secrets,

Like a kid who comes home quiet after a fight but ends up telling everything to their mom.

A small gesture by you makes me so happy,

Like a kid who cannot control his happiness over a lollipop.

I feel relieved shedding my tears in front of you,

Like a kid, who cries everything out & are back to normal the very next moment.

 My eyes starts to twinkle on seeing you around,

Like a baby, when given his favorite precious to spend time with.

I look up-to you for motivation, cheering me up  and support,

Like a kid waiting for their parents to wave and cheer them up at their sports day.

I wait for you, endlessly-

Like a kid waits for his birthday & for Santa, every year.

The child in me is still alive,

& the child in you is still alive too,

Lets not hold it back,

Let us, let it thrive!

Old Soul Love.

My grandparents have an old soul love,
It is-
Hand in hand, your hand in mine-
until the end of the time.
I've seen them care,
I've seen them scold,
A love story I wanna live if truth be told!
Not forgetting each other's medicines even though memory is all weak,
Enter their room, & two amazing humans with smile will greet!
Body ain't anymore as strong as it was,
Will power crosses 100, age bar is no cause!
Helping one- another with the all day routine,
Followed by their favorite movie matinee.
Having each others back through all thick and thin,
At the end of the day having each other on to lean.
Where-
Evenings are filled with recalling the old stories,
A lot many emotions and life theories.

Learnt-
Quitting is no option, work through it all,
Be it work, health, family, relationships,
Hold on-
Neither too tight, nor to loose & things in place will fall.
How focusing on the positive is nothing but a choice,
How shifting a little focus can fill your life with rejoice!

I aim for such love,
I belong to an army of hopeless romantics,
Hold my hand,
Read me a poem,
Share a cup of tea with me,
If nothing, just let there silence be.
Walk with me through the country roads,
Trust me you won't get bored.
Lets make a playlist of our favorite songs,
We'll play it on days we are on drives long!
Look me in the eyes & that would be enough,
To get me going through situations tough!
A little filmy let the life be, let the life be!
In a world full of mobile screens,chatting and a sky full of smog,
Give me this, Give me this, Give me this!

Why So Perfect??

OK, it's 2.22am and my mind has embarked on its journey of late night thoughts. All my life, I've noted people yearn for perfection. An ideal relationship, a perfect nine-to-five, a perfect wedding, a perfect song, an ideal partner, a perfect house, a perfect dress and yet I see no one admitting that they finally have that 'perfect' thing/person in life. Well, the definition of perfection sure does differ for each one of us, but you know what, your perfect someone or something will also have at least one such thing that's not perfect and it won't bother you because with time you realize that your 'real perfect' doesn't really need to be your ' visual perfect'. Like everybody else, I also had visuals in my mind of  what 'perfection' looks like. Times changed, definitions of perfection changed.

THEN-

A beautiful young lady,

A professional degree by 21, 

Those perfect curves by 22,  

An overflowing bank account  by 24, 

Settling down with someone by 25

Wow, this would be so perfect

NOW-

Still behind that first degree at 22, 

Still figuring out things that actually fascinates me,

Still trying to find ways to balancing my emotions,

Those perfect curves? Well I've postponed working on them for a few years too!

But, I never forget to count on my blessings before opening my eyes every morning.

Trust me, life is still perfect.

THEN-

A Prince who treats you like princess, 

Pampers you like a kid, 

Finds his way to you through that lost Cinderella shoe,

Talks to you just about love, fairy-tales and happily ever afters,

This would be so perfect!

NOW-

A Man who respects you for who you are,

Who need not treat you like a princess but knows how to keep her lady!

Who talks to you about reality and still keeps your faith alive in fairy tales and happily ever after,

Who scolds you for your mistakes but also, understands you like no one else.

Who makes you laugh until your tummy hurts, 

& no matter what chooses to love you every single day.

Fights with you, cries for you, makes you cry too.

This is my new 'perfect'.

BACK THEN-

Four friends on a road trip,

Camping near a river,

Hiking up the mountains,

Unlimited photographs, 

Endless drinks, 

Super chic outfits, 

No restrictions- being a girl.

This would have been so perfect!

NOW-

Four best friends on a rooftop, 

Coffee mugs to keep you awake, 

Endless gossips and endless laughter, 

A game of sequence and may be ludo too.

Shivering out of cold & snatching from one another the only sheet you have, 

You know what- this is perfect too!

Do you remember?

Do you remember?

The last time you got butterflies in your tummy,

You were happy but just couldn't share it with your mommy!

The last time, someone made you laugh till you die,

& there were no second thoughts in calling him "mine"!

The last time you hoped, every message was-him, 

Even though you knew it was the time for his gym! 

The last time you sang a tune all along, 

& your heart gave beats to beautify that song! 

Do you remember - 

The last time- when promises made to you felt so real, 

All fears apart, all that mattered was that one feel! 

The last time- when taking risks were all worth it, 

Mornings were beautiful and evenings were lit. 

The last time- you wanted to dress up, show up and wear that little make-up, 

& sit down to talk with nothing fancy but a large coffee mug! 

The last time- When everything made proper sense, 

& on the melody of life you joyfully danced! 

Do you remember? 

A little Self Talk!

Dear Self,

First, a very happy new year to you. Year wise, you're entering 22nd year of your life. Wow, 21 years already went by, too quick, isn't it?  I know, while reading this you're thinking what an amazing journey it has been with experiences you never thought you would go through. You are thinking about the mistakes you've made, the nights you didn’t sleep and you thought you won't be able to make it. Look, where you are today! You have crawled out of every damn thing life put you through whether good or bad, and knowing how positive you've been throughout, I'm so proud of you!

I know, you've big dreams that you desperately want come true. I know, you're afraid that things might not work out. I know You! But, what you do not know is, you're a strong soul, a human full of emotions but yet so strong that each time a situation comes at you, you blow it away in the best possible way. Have faith, 2018 is your year. Not all dreams might come to life, but know, that everything that happens will always be good for you and your well-being.

I know, you're an old school soul who doesn't like partying hard like kids these days do. You do not fit into places and among people who are loud. I also know that you take your own time opening up to people and aren't necessarily introvert- but shy & quiet. But, that's totally okay. It is more than okay to love spending time alone, its totally okay to have your friends come over for coffee, lunch and dinner and not booze/smoke. Its so much fine to want a long walk or a long drive rather than sitting in a fancy club or a pub.It's totally alright to want to listen than to talk. Trust me, it's totally okay!

I know, you worry too much. You are lost in deep thoughts about the past, the present as well as future. But, let me tell you- Everybody will tell you that  thinking a lot causes stress and discomfort  but this is not the entire thing. Thinking makes you what you are, thinking helps your analyse situations, making good and informed decisions and most importantly, thinking- makes you an aware human. I shall tell you just one thing- Think good, happy and positive thoughts because that's where the secret to this life lies.

I know, how needy you can be at times. I know also that you're insecure and want to keep your circle close. I know how you need someone at times to let yourself out of the cage that you've made for yourself. But listen, who isn't needy?  It's just that people don't always express & accept their weaker sides. Coming to being insecure- well you've this amazing set of best friends & family, who wouldn't be insecure?  But know, like you love them so much ,they love you too and those who love you will always be around and stick to you.

I know, how people around you call you atheist but what they do not know is you not always go to temples but each night before sleeping you make a Thank you note to God. I know, how much faith you carry inside of you. I know you inside out. Do not be disheartened by what people tell you, because like every human who walks this earth, you're here too to make mistakes, to learn, to experience, to achieve, to inspire, to get inspired, to fall off, to stand again, to be brave, to be independent yet be dependent. After all, you're a human.

Let go of the previous years, take a heart full of memories & lessons with you forward, lets finish the unfinished business, lets together look forward to all the amazing days 2018 is about to give you. Let's face the truth, let's once again fall, and get back up. What ever life throws at you- let's look forward to face it with a smile  because that's what life is all about. You're strong and YOU CAN DO IT and one fine day, you're going to be so proud of yourself.

 Yours,

Subconcious self.

How Much Is Too Much!

There are junctures when we're no more talking to some people in our lives, be it-friends from school, 

friends from college who once were your side-kicks- today you don’t even want to see them. 

Colleagues who were once very supportive have turned into mingy ones. 

If we recollect, we all will have a long-winded list of people we no more are in touch with for some reasons that if thought again-aren't that prime enough.

Each person we share our life with never happens to have given us ONLY the hard times or JUST the good ones either. Its always a sequence of both. There will be seasons you would thank God for having such amazing people with you, but then their will be those shifts too when you wouldn't anymore want several of them to be there-because they made you upset and caused your heart to ache! Our generation is one such, where we tend to judge people the very next minute we make acquaintance with them.

Putting our thoughts into all the things that caused us pain or gave us a hard time, hands us nothing but more and more reasons to feel dejected and be wistful. Calling in mind those infinite good things, no matter how small or big- that has ever happened and keeps on happening, gives us out and out positive standpoint towards life and people. It's not something we do for others, it's for OUR own mental peace, OUR happiness. we relieve ourselves of all the unnecessary thoughts our mind hold. It is being selfish- in a beneficial way! 

For- may be 10 or say 20 years from now, it'll be all the good times & memories, those unplanned laughs & sudden-shot incidents that will make you smile and cherish this journey we all are into. If we ever get to cross our roads, after a few years with someone who we no more talked to back then and still, ring a bell!  There'll definitely be one reason, at-least one small reason to pass on a smile- the good time you spent with them, once upon a time in life.

We've got one definite life. I don't know much, but I surely do not want to spend it hating people. It's not possible to get along with everyone we know or meet, but keeping up with those few we choose to, shouldn't be an option either. Well, it's human nature, people hurt you, you hurt some, but what's the point holding grudges and saying goodbyes forever. Not unless we learn to forgive and let go,do we grow.

The World That Begins In Sleep

The little kid dreamed-

Ninjas fighting over their toys,

Girls, of their barbies

And of Pokemon, dreamed the boys.

The rich dreamed-

A family of four,

His kids by his  side,

A wife to spend for,

Who he will adore.

The poor dreamed-

A happy meal two times a day,

His kids going to school,

His aged parents getting treatment done,

His wife not starving and no more in the sun burn!

The lover dreamed-

Someone who would hear it all,

one on whom all his love could fall too,

A relationship with no lies and only true love,

Someone who would say forever and mean it too.

The aged dreamed-

Growing back young,

Finishing all the unfinished,

Time when the happy troops sung,

Lying on the rooftop relaxed and sun-kissed.

Well that’s when the clock stuck 6 in the morning,

When the elders got up straight,

and the kids were still yawning,

Coming back to reality,

lets get back to chasing our callings!

In No Time We All Grew Up

How did time flew by so fast, 

In no time we grew up, already two decades passed. 

Times- we cried when we got hurt while playing,

Today we have mastered ourselves to cover even the hearts breaking.

When each evening was spent with friends all around,

Now friends are there, but in memories and phone bound.

Friends we make- be like mirror and shadows,

because, mirror never lies and shadows never leave!

Fighting and getting back together was a daily routine,

Today, one fight ends an entire relationship.

Relations and love are- where the heart is involved,

they do not just upon the words evolve.

Today,

The truth is sold, so are the lies, 

and sold today in the market are all sorts of story-files. 

We forget,

No matter how clean the road is, the dirt will follow,

No matter how good a human is, mistakes will follow.

Food poison has ways to be treated,

But ears once poisoned, can never be repaired.

If people remember you only when they need,

Be happy, its because they find in you the solution seeds!

Down The Memory Lane..

I've been in this city hundreds of times before. Have spent 5 longs months in the same place three years back, but this time it was different, these 10 months have been amazingly epic. Last few days before I  pack my bags up and leave! A city that became my home,second home, gave me the best kind of people to deal with and uncountable memories to hold back to. I know I'll be coming back, to visit, or to stay for a few days, but still felt like writing this down!

You come to a city you don’t belong to,

Counting your days of 'survival' ,

and

You don’t even realize when those 100 days of survival,

Turn into 10 best lived months of your life.

Familiar faces, who

were just  contacts saved since years ,

Turned into best friends.

Girl next-door who once you never talked to,

Becomes your whole and sole and your pampering bowl.

That feeling,

when you get all you ever wished for,

A set of best people,

Who become your family away from home,

You cry together,You laugh together,

You Skype together,You sit together,

And you're high on life, altogether.

And then comes the time,

When you have to leave,

Happy to be home,

But sad to leave this happy place!

You’ve been amazing this time,

Until next time Jodhpur!

Dear someone who is miles away

Dear someone who is miles away,

I still remember the day we confessed our feelings for each other. I could never possibly imagine loving a person miles away but this relationship has taught me a lot, a lot more than words can possibly articulate. It taught me what trust is, it taught me how magically faith works, it taught me to be patient, calm and composed.

It was different back then. WE were different. I still crave for those years spent in bliss. Today, when I look at relationships around me, I feel pity for people who in reality does not even know what does a relationship mean but are still dealing with one or several at a time. Everyone is busy making their own definitions and this really hits me hard. I'm blessed to have spent such a major part of my life with you.

All the years we were together, we both have put immense efforts to make our relationship work. Meeting just a very, very few times in a year but being together virtually all the time. Your eyes full of dreams, your laughter following a tight hug after teasing me, those lyrics of the song you always sang wrong, all this is constantly on my mind while penning this down.

 I never feared distance while I was with you. You made me believe that all my fears were just a name. There were times we had fights, real bad ones  to make us part our ways, but you always held on to me until one fine day. Yes, I now fear distance, I do fear communication gap but I want you to believe that you have set the best example of love  and unconditional care and attachment  to me, to US and to those who know us both.

Thank you for not being among those "cool studs and girls" who knows nothing and are still in relationships not always one but several at a time too. Thank you for giving me the experience of how real relationships are. If not together with any tag, we still are together by the values we shared and the immortal mental connection we have.

Truly,

Your someone who is miles away!